The Re-Cap

I promise that I will fulfill all the promises I made for myself ...
2013 will be a year of harvest for me.
I think God allowed all the things that happened to me to set me up into greater things.
And He wasn't joking when He said that "He will give beauty for ashes".
I can still remember those days of pain, crying, self pity, disappointments.
Then one day I told God, I WILL GO THROUGH THIS WITH YOUR HELP AND GUIDANCE if this will make me a better, renewed person. Sure enough, He did. He kept His promise!
Looking back, I can't help but feel amaze on how God turned things out. There was a time where I was too afraid to let go, to finally let go. Then God caused some things for me to realize my situation. It's like He whispered "Mei, it's time to let go, you been staying on this place too long that you might miss the great things I have for you". At this moment there's one promise I will start to fulfill. Hehehe. And I won't give any hall pass on it whether Im sick or not. Lolz. I am so glad that God helped me change the things I can't change within myself and also accept the things I don't have control of. It's really possible to be what God wants us to be if we will agree on what He wants us to do. It maybe painful, oh! indeed it is, but it all worth it. The journey is still a long way but I decided that my response is more important than my reaction. When I was a child until my  late teens, I thought life was simple, just go with the flow. I was afraid to dream. I never dare to dream big because all I can see are the hindrances in front of me plus the excuses I imposed to myself. Also, I never thought that I can change, for being better than I was before. Thanks be to God. I can't do these things alone. He helped me face the things I am afraid to deal with such as the topic of self worth and most especially the financial area of my life. I was too stingy before and now I realize that is the reason why the blessings can't flow in me. I was earning 5 digits before and yet I can't even save a hundred pesos in the bank. Its's the day I open my closed fist when I realize the true meaning of financial freedom. I want to be rich that's why I give. Another learning for me this year is to learn how to happy regardless of your marital status. Oh! I have so much to tell about my previous relationship but what I want to give emphasize are the things I have learned. That led me to this basic truth: Don't control people! Let someone love you just the way you are and be faithful in all area of your life. Another thing is, you will know if that person is the one. So far, I am on this planet for a quarter of century and for sure I have so much more to learn in life. I love living and I am so blessed in many many ways. I love where I am right now and the way where I am going. I so love what Joyce Meyer said: "I may not where I need to be, but thank God, Im not where I used to be".

Set Your Mind and Keep it Set

Well, I need to FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS for a mean time to study Hanggukmal. Yes. I might not be able to post for a while coz I need to bear fruit first .... Aja!

Coz Dreams Do Come True

When I was 7 years old (1995), me and my older sister had to stay in my auntie's house in San Andres, Bukid Manila for around 3 months I think. If you know the place, it's something you wouldn't want to raise your kids. I am not saying I am ungrateful for staying in that area, in fact I am thankful because I had to taste how to have nothing or to be in lack in many things. Oh, the memories are starting to flash in my mind now. That sweaty hot afternoon, houses that  are very close to each other, narrow roads, children everywhere, young men playing basketball on a half court, vendors each side, running waters, and even burial on the other block. Indeed, it's what we call squatter area. Not far from this place is the towering buildings of Makati, City - the commercial capital of the Philippines. The point of this post is to reminisce that one event in my life of what I called "someday". One late random afternoon, I faced my direction on those buildings and I told myself "someday, I will live or I will work in one of those buildings" . Tanaw ko lang dati yun.

Little that I know, after 15 years IT CAME TRUE. In 2010, I worked for 24/7 Customer and Sutherland Philippines as a call center agent where both officers are located in Makati, 9th floor and 21st floor respectively. Yes! This might be a small story to tell, but for that 7 year old kid, indeed DREAMS DO COME TRUE!

12.12.12 PRIORITIZATION

Time check: 11:38, Seoul

pri·or·i·tize

Verb Designate or treat (something) as more important than other things: "prioritize your credit card debt". Determine the order for dealing with (a series of items or tasks) according to their relative importance: "people prioritize their goals".

Okay, last time I posted about Procrastination. This time, it's Prioritization. I know I have a little victory over procrastination because I can see some progress from me. Not only that, I found the things that paralyze my growth so it's time to apply this into action. My mind keeps blaming my 12 hours work for not making any accomplishment. If you'll think it, it's a big hindrance indeed. I get off at 9pm very tired. Though my mind is pretty excited to get things done, my body is really exhausted. I might also add the weather. It's freezing cold and given a chance I would sleep all day but I can't. If there are some chores left for me, I need to do it too. Then, need to wake up at 7am. I only have a limited time each week. At work, I only have 30 minutes for lunch and dinner break. Oh, I remember the days where I could do whatever I want to do. I can sleep to death and I don't need to care on other things. Now, it seems each minute is like a gold. 

I need to prioritize.
I need to.

Le me share this. I know it's kinda off topic but this is for me and others maybe.

"Stop getting sucked into needless drama"

Till then, anyeong!

Winter Mode Activated

This is the second winter for me here in South Korea. Though it's a cool, literally cool experience, I am starting to get irritated with the cold feeling everyday. It's hard, really hard but thank God I have accustomed myself already. Everyday, I need to wear 3 layers of thin pants and shirts to work properly. Chu-wo, meaning cold is what you will hear from me frequently. On the other side, I know this might be the last time I will witness this season so I might as well enjoy what I have now. 

After the heavy snow. Morning view from our apartment. 

At our company

With my workmates: I, Grace, Vietnamese sisters, Yoori (Thai) and Ate Amy.

Some of My Things

Im a little over a year here and these are some things I have accumulated.

When I arrived here, Ive been a loyal Faceshop buyer What I like most in this shop is that it's too affordable. I also buy some items in Skin Food. The price is a little higher compare to Faceshop. Nonetheless, I both enjoy these two stores. 

Shooooeeesss. Who doesn't want it? I dont have any intention to buy these shoes. It just so happen that I got extended here and I needed to buy (well, for that snow boots!). Im a shoe lover and I miss the shoes I left at home. 

Yah, yah yah! This is Korea101. Im a bit frustrated because my Hanggukmal if I will rate it from 1 to 10, I guess it's a poor 2. Sad right? I know I should not blame anyone for this. But, I need to learn their language for my own benefit. 

Aren't they cute? These cuties came from Faceshop. It costs 1000 won or around 40 pesos. I love the neon colours. 

My birthday gift for myself. :)))))

I dont have name yet for this teddy. Can you suggest??? 

So much more to post yet little time I have. Till next time. Anyeong!

Procrastination

Time check: 11:49pm, Seoul

Yup! You read it right.
So I need to do this post to save myself from being one. Hahaha! As I said from my previous post, I could get the “ningas kugon” award. But not tonight. You see, Im taking things slow these days. I need to be balance because last time I thought that once I relax and simply put some things off, I could be productive. Oh, baby that was wrong. It was a learning lesson though. As a random woman, there are lot of things that are playing in my brain. At work, which I am very thankful (coz I could surf the net, and work with headphones beside my supervisor hahaha), I would listen to podcast by Joyce Meyer and Zig Ziglar. I know and I have tested that apart from God’s guidance, I am nothing. In fact, a while ago, I watched some clips on some evidences of Isralites crossing the Red Sea. Im so marvel and in awe about this. On the other side, Im also amaze on successful people who started from scratch. Yah, yah, yah! I have a picture of my own two storey white/black house with jacuzzi house in mind. And it will come true. See what’s running in my mind? Also, Im also working about working on my 21 Days Challenge. I will list some chores that I need to practice in 21 days so it could turn as my habits.

Ill beat you PROCRASTINATION.

Till then!
Anyeong

My Thoughts Recently

Okay! So after almost two weeks with no post, I am here to collect my thoughts and also what happened to me these past few days. I had a bad week. I blew it. I was not in my element. Last night, I had a draft of what supposed to be my latest post. But before this day ends, I refused to publish it.

Time check: 10.55pm, 04 Dec 2012 Seoul

I had random thoughts. I was physically tired. I wasted most of my free time and energy. I sway beyond my boundaries. I ate like a pig (harhar). I was reacting differently. I responded through my feelings and emotions. However, the good news is I know the reasons behind these and I don’t have to blame anyone for this. I had a poor choice. I had several choices to choose from but I chose the least best for me. Prior to that week, I was exhausting myself to meet all the tasks I have set to myself. I told myself that I needed to take things slow. It was a good idea but I took in it the wrong way. So everytime I hit my bed at night, I just spend my spare time checking my facebook and watching stuffs on Youtube. I was not productive that week  Anyway, enough of pity party. Tonight, I need to encourage myself to push through once more with perseverance. Yes, I mean it. Perseverance.

As I said before, I started blogging in early 2011. It was something I really wanted to do. I have been writing short stories since my childhood but I didn’t pursue it. I am a frustrated writer and photographer, got to admit.  I intended to take Journalism or Psychology course then but for some valid reasons, I didn’t turn into reality. However, I am still very much thankful on how my life has turned out so far. I am blessed way beyond.

How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time.

For many years, I am a prison of RIGHT NOW. I want to get things done now. Not only that, it should look attractive on my sight or else I need to re-do the whole process. The result? I have wasted a lot of time achieving things that cannot be done overnight. This can be seen in my career and relationships. Thank God because right now, I will leave that mountain.

Consistency.

As I review my life, that is one big thing that is missing. I have this ningas kugon mentality where I am fire up to start a certain project and then suddenly lose my interest. This affects both my professional and personal life. I really need to work on this or else I am doom to fail.

Why am I doing these?

There’s a freedom in that question. Why am spending time typing these words? What’s the purpose? To whom I should get acknowledgment? Nah! I must admit but my former  reason why I started this blog is because …. hmmm I DON’T KNOW! Honestly I can’t remember why or I don’t have any concrete reason at all. Was I envy? Was I only wanting to impress other people? You see, if the starting point of why we do things are vague, what follows will not create any meaning. I had to learn this hard truth. For many years, I have tried to produce goals, wants, plan, etc for myself. Until now I am still struggling to figure out what I really want in life. But what I can tell you, I WILL BE AT THAT DEFINING MOMENT SOONER OR LATER.

Time check: 09.57pm, 05 Dec 2012 Seoul

This is the second part of this post. I had to do this in two days because my brain keeps on wandering. Today, the snow fell on the ground really hard. We took some photos outside our company then we went to mart to buy some stuffs. Just few minutes ago, I browsed some blogs. I know there are other blogs out there aside from Vern Enciso lolz. I am a bit tired at the moment and I really want to accomplish today. Yes, I need to accomplish something tonight. I am certain I still have a long way to go. Im maybe on the cross roads and there’s a big need to figure things out. But for now, I won’t force things to happen. I will let it flow. I may do some mistakes in the future, but I will make sure those are bits of lesson I will carry. I don’t have to be a reflection of other people. I just need to be ME.

Till then! Anyeong