The Re-Cap

I promise that I will fulfill all the promises I made for myself ...
2013 will be a year of harvest for me.
I think God allowed all the things that happened to me to set me up into greater things.
And He wasn't joking when He said that "He will give beauty for ashes".
I can still remember those days of pain, crying, self pity, disappointments.
Then one day I told God, I WILL GO THROUGH THIS WITH YOUR HELP AND GUIDANCE if this will make me a better, renewed person. Sure enough, He did. He kept His promise!
Looking back, I can't help but feel amaze on how God turned things out. There was a time where I was too afraid to let go, to finally let go. Then God caused some things for me to realize my situation. It's like He whispered "Mei, it's time to let go, you been staying on this place too long that you might miss the great things I have for you". At this moment there's one promise I will start to fulfill. Hehehe. And I won't give any hall pass on it whether Im sick or not. Lolz. I am so glad that God helped me change the things I can't change within myself and also accept the things I don't have control of. It's really possible to be what God wants us to be if we will agree on what He wants us to do. It maybe painful, oh! indeed it is, but it all worth it. The journey is still a long way but I decided that my response is more important than my reaction. When I was a child until my  late teens, I thought life was simple, just go with the flow. I was afraid to dream. I never dare to dream big because all I can see are the hindrances in front of me plus the excuses I imposed to myself. Also, I never thought that I can change, for being better than I was before. Thanks be to God. I can't do these things alone. He helped me face the things I am afraid to deal with such as the topic of self worth and most especially the financial area of my life. I was too stingy before and now I realize that is the reason why the blessings can't flow in me. I was earning 5 digits before and yet I can't even save a hundred pesos in the bank. Its's the day I open my closed fist when I realize the true meaning of financial freedom. I want to be rich that's why I give. Another learning for me this year is to learn how to happy regardless of your marital status. Oh! I have so much to tell about my previous relationship but what I want to give emphasize are the things I have learned. That led me to this basic truth: Don't control people! Let someone love you just the way you are and be faithful in all area of your life. Another thing is, you will know if that person is the one. So far, I am on this planet for a quarter of century and for sure I have so much more to learn in life. I love living and I am so blessed in many many ways. I love where I am right now and the way where I am going. I so love what Joyce Meyer said: "I may not where I need to be, but thank God, Im not where I used to be".